SAMPLE
SAUERKRAUT
Everything about it is rank, vulgar, echt—
which is why I love it so much: the opened jar
frankly reeking of compost, the tang of forbidden salt
and gastric sour in these limp and worm-colored shreds
of unspeakable cabbage, which I close my eyes to devour.
Home-canned, of course: who would be the snobbish knave
to let such a legacy die? Each October,
a sauerkraut séance with my earthy ancestors—
the heirloom slicer still keen enough to add
a little protein of fingertips to the batch, no problem;
the pure-white stuff mounding in the hand-me-down crock,
to be tenderly bruised with my grandfather’s baseball bat—
And then, the anointing with salt, precisely three tablespoons
to five pounds of cabbage, according to oral tradition—
once I followed a recipe in a book that specified
ten times too much salt, so much for literacy
in things that matter. Then all hands thrust stinging
into the mass for the final kneading and mixing,
the coaxing of the juices out and the salt in,
with a wordless prayer for the circumambient angels
of fermentation to descend now and enter in,
and in six weeks change this cabbage to kraut, amen. |
SIGNAGE
On a Route 390 overpass
for all the northbound world to see
in yellow three-foot strokes
KERRY I LOVE YOU—MIKE
I love you both whatever happened
even if Kerry now takes a different route
to work and Mike now rues his reckless artistry
hanging over the railing after midnight
painting his heart out upside down and backward
the true posture of love |
ONTOGENY
Then there are the stories and after a while
I think
something else must connect them besides just this me.
– W.S. Merwin, “The
Child”
“Mommy, take me home, I’m a changed boy!”
they say I promised
after Grandpa kept me for a week
drilling on my lisping l’s and r’s
until I had them safely tongued-in-cheek
and had ceased to be the insufferable,
the unspeakable “Jewwy Wamsey.”
Now, presumably, I was me? Wrong—
though storied, I was indecipherable.
In all this folklore of my growing, I miss
knowing the primitive little boy, the Urknabe.
Some days I feel like a tattered biplane, viz.
the Cal Rodgers Special, “Vin Fiz,”
first aeroplane from coast to coast in 1912,
which finished up its flight with only four
original parts, three wing-ribs and a strut.
Poor rickety bionic windhover—
a crash a day, tut tut, that’s me all over.
How can there be a plot worth scanning
when the hero metamorphosizes every inning?
Still, once more into the book of changes
I leap, for love’s ultimate ploy,
crying, “Darling, take me, I’m a changed boy!” |
DOUR FLICKA
Old plug, old sorrel mare
we named you “Flicka” from the movie
but the spinster in you drove the filly out.
Foaled when I was four, we reckon,
now you’ve slowly died beyond the gate
because not one of us was man enough to use the gun.
You never loved us, did you, never mooched
for oats, or nickered, lonesome, over fences—
and yet how close your bleak life’s a frame for mine!
They say a horse at thirty’s in its dotage;
I take such lore to heart now, at forty.
The sharpest little cow-horse in the County,
“turn on a dime and give ’em change,”
you’d primly separate the calves at roundup
despite my misdirections from the saddle.
Twice one afternoon you cut so sharp
you sent me flying like a flapjack;
in brush you did your best to scrape me off,
and once as my city girlfriend tried to mount
you reached around, old snake, and bit her fanny.
Jealous? No, just ornery—
my dad kept better-tempered horses, still
how many trips beginning, longer and longer
away from home, have you stood alone as usual
like a stick horse in the farthest pasture
the last member of the family I’d see
and wave goodbye to, no one watching,
dour Flicka dainty hoof, so long. |
HAND-SHADOWS
for a daughter, eighteen
Dear child, first-born, what I could give outright
I’ve given—now there is only a father’s wishing.
What can I hang around your neck for magic,
or smuggle in your pocket? I would draw
you a contour map of the territory ahead
but in truth it could only show you X—you are here.
The rest would be your Terra Incognita.
Years ago, in the trees beside a mountain lake
after bedtime, your mother and I sat up
together, reading the fire. Each flame, leaping,
seemed a stroke of the future, a signal for us
for you asleep in your nest at the rim of firelight
where great jagged shadows danced like knives.
We faced our ignorance until the fire was ash.
Once, in the first transports of adolescence,
you wandered over the hills behind the Sky Ranch,
remember? Suddenly beyond your feet
the country plunged away to utter strangeness,
and you were lost. The south wind carried your cries
like birdsong. At last I found you quiet on a stone,
your eyes full of the world we do not own.
Now it is all before you—wonderful
beyond a father’s bedtime reckoning,
beyond his fears. What is it love must say?
Go forth to the fullness of your being; may
a merry kindness look you in the face.
Where home was, may your travels bring
you to a fellowship of open hearts.
So love must change our parts, my child no longer
child. I stand rehearsing at the door,
and think how once at bedtime, a dozen years
ago, I taught you how to cross your wrists
in the bright lamp-light, and link your thumbs, so,
and there on the wall a great bird arose
and soared on shadow wings, to the wonderment of all. |
THE NAMING OF TOOLS
When all else fails
there is always the naming of tools—
Coping Saw for instance,
one of the great family of saws, Crosscut,
Rip, Miter, Hack, Keyhole, Dovetail, Dado—
and the fierce blind brotherhood of hammers,
Big Clawhammer, Little Tackhammer, Ballpeen, Mallet, Sledge,
and the sharp-tongued tribe of tools for dressing,
Spokeshave, Drawknife, Rabbetplane,
Rasp, Burr, Rattailed File,
the Chisels, Straight Gouge, Bent Gouge, Fishtail, Pod Spade,
Macaroni, Fluteroni, Backeroni,
each with its elegant shape
and singular blessing of purpose—
and best of all, the rabble
of indispensable gadgets, Countersink,
Centerpunch, Prickpunch, Easy-out, Plumb-bob,
Studfinder, Hermaphrodite Calipers,
Breechmount Squeegee—
oh tools enough to spur the most sorethumbed
crosseyed carpenter forth again
to cobble his screwloose world! |
WAKING UP FIRST
Once again I wake up first, and explore
the country of your averted face
while the simple dawn light grazes
the Irish complications of your hair,
the stern true curve of jawbone and chin.
the full lips pressed all night against
the words you have left unspoken.
At the neck, a token pulse throbs and throbs
and I quail, counting my own. Dear pilgrim,
where are you now? Far upstream at break of day,
do you near the terrible stony source
of your river of blood, still fraught with my old betrayal?
From what seems like miles away
in the great light that does not fail us
I see your eyelashes shine and flicker
and I know somewhere you wake.
Can we be the same people come back
so far to this room, in the new dawn?
Turn to me, though I be struck blind and deaf,
show me, as only you can,
what remains of myself. |
LOVE IN AN EARTHQUAKE
When the big Seattle earthquake spoke
to our hill in a voice so deep our houses
bowed and scraped, you ran for the out-of-doors
but I caught you and held you bravely, me, the laird
of a home that quakes, and therefore stays, together.
Oh we had a cozy year, I guess, in the doorframe
where the Building Inspectors say always to go
and I thought I had finally saved me a life
after a lifetime of trying
and perhaps if you’d been a stranger-girl
you’d have kissed me, and I’d have taken you in.
But my dear such flat heroics!
If I’d known then as I know now
your plumb heart my world turns on,
your graces that simply make it go—
I’d have let you dance right out on the rollicking
street in your dangerous joy and skip
barefooted the flipping electrical wires
and sway with our neighbors’ undulant chimneys—
I’d have seen you once at least in your earthquake freedoms
with the sun jumping all over heaven for you
and the hill rolled back at your feet. |
THE CROW LOVER
At winter dusk the bare oak branches
leaf out in black—
the crows caucus.
All day long they flap and scan
this meateating town
and now drop down
to jostle, preen, and tell each other
the worst. All night they gloat
over the dead day.
Beneath them in the oaks
I feel again the great rough joy.
My faceflesh beaks, my shoulders
are hunching into wings.
Two strokes up as the crow flies
and I’d be home. |
INDIAN PAINTING, IN A CAVE
near Madras, Oregon
Over a trail glinting with flakes
of half-worked arrowheads, jasper, obsidian, flint,
I follow an Indian entirely to stone.
His cave clenches itself around me,
I am the eye of the cliff come back to its socket
to spy on this hillside of animals breeding and dying
and boulders losing their balance. In the cave of my mind
words form white like crystals,
What remains to be seen?
I twist to the light, but glare seals me in.
What remains? Indian, the dark at the back
of your cave stays where you left it, and cold rock walls
still bruise flesh upon bone: always we live
in between. I lie where you lay. Overhead
on the spalling sky, murky with soot,
arm’s length away the elk you painted
runs on head down the color of my own blood.
You made the gory sun to shine above,
and over the sun strides a kind of man with a bow.
I lie and think of that hunt: man, elk, and sun,
tracing it over and over until your paint
seems to ooze down my fingers and wrist, and clot.
Indian, flat on your back in this cave you
made what I would, a prayer to your gods:
a sign to your people you were here
but left. I follow you into stone. |
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